I've been aware of it for months but i couldn't put my finger on it exactly until last night:
"Dear friends, do not be surprised at the painful trial you are suffering, as though something strange were happening to you. But rejoice that you participate in the sufferings of Christ, so that you may be overjoyed when his glory is revealed... If you suffer as a Christian, do not be ashamed, but praise God that you bear that name. For it is time for judgment to begin with the family of God..."
1 Peter 4: 12-13, 16-17
Every time I think I'm "fighting the good fight of the faith" (Timothy 6:12) it turns out I'm just fighting against those who I consider to be unfaithful! Who do I think I am? Lord help me! Good for me, I know He will!