I feel boring lately. Unoriginal. Contrived. I feel boring when I curse. I feel boring when I get self-righteous. I feel boring when I'm talking and talking, making excuses as to why I'm so different now than I was six months ago. I feel boring when I sin because I know it makes me into everyone else who couldn't help themself. Furthermore, worrying about all these things is boring!
The only time I don’t feel like that is when I’m talking about how I feel for God. Or when I’m just enjoying the communication we’re having with one another. Or when I’m so full of the Holy Spirit that I find myself laughing or smiling uncontrollably, and I just want to share it with every person I encounter. THAT is when I feel unique, when I am right there with God, our arms linked, best friends forever.
"So do not worry, saying, 'What shall we eat?' or 'What shall we drink?' or 'What shall we wear?' For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. But seek first His kingdom and His righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own." Matthew 6: 31-34